when i shot a whole roll of film for the melbourne silver mine totally awesome film swap project.
i spent the evening and morning with a good friend who was over from london and is one of a couple of people that i really credit for inspiring me to return to film photography. i shot the whole roll in one day, kind of like a day in the life of nicole. i felt inspired and excited by what i’d shot.
now i’ll let you in on a secret. normally with photographic projects and exhibitions i’m usually doing things at the last minute (like framing photos at 3 o’clock in the morning the night before) rather proud of myself that i’d done a project several weeks before the deadline. i immediately developed it and it looked awesome on the negs! then i got a bit busy with uni and work (actually frantically mind blowingly busy) and after a couple of weeks realised i’d better get my butt into gear and scan and print the photos.
could i find the negs? no … nowhere. chris and i turned the house upside down, i flipped out and cried cause i was so stressed out i didn’t feel like i had time to shoot, develop, scan and print another whole roll.
but i did do it … and in the end both myself and the recipient did love the images.
fast forward three months. i’m back from thailand and malaysia. i’m centred, at peace, calm. and i’m looking through my dvd collection in my tv cabinet draws and glance up at the shelf in front of my face. a white box that my lab puts the negs in was sitting in front of me. about 20cm from where i’d last seen it all those months ago. it was there all along, in plain view.
i’ve now had them developed and i’ve scanned them. but you know what? i don’t think i like them as much as the roll i ended up giving to dee. it’s like the time i finished a uni assignment two weeks early and got the worst mark of any assignment ever. i don’t hate them, i like them but they just don’t have as much of the spark, the oomph, the passion of the second lot. i suppose i shouldn’t be dissing my own work but it’s just honest. maybe i’ll change my mind later though.
what have i learnt from this? i do too much. i need to keep calm. i shouldn’t freak out. i need shanti.
and most of all … never ever ever finish something three weeks early and then neglect to go back to it and check it again before the due date.
athough sometimes you need a little bit of panic to inspire you too!
ps i really really want to post my travel shots but i needed to finish this … and i have one more post before you can see the travel ones – see you tomorrow x